I remember you.
Painfully sounding letters, then words
Looking up, expecting criticism
Surprised by praise. Your face smoothing
From worried frown to relieved smile.
I still see you.
Scared and fierce. Dreading the journey.
Holding your brother to keep him safe
Not releasing the last hugs, the last goodbyes
Breaking inside, and already knowing to hide.
When you came back
Almost grown, protecting those you love
With secrets and denial. They grew inside
And destroyed what you tried to build.
Years of love rejected, nearly broke you.
And here you are.
Almost whole. Almost healed. Almost well.
Looking into your son’s smile, you’ve found
The meaning of love, and life, and hope.
And I hold you close in my heart.